My Answer...

My blankie! Don't leave home without it!

Betch'a you can't catch me! I'm to fast for you!

Oh dad! Come on! Just one big leap into this gigantic pool!

No, I don't like family pictures! My mommy makes me do it!

This is what I think about these family outings!

So....YES! I enjoyed the beach!

The ride there was a little adventuresome. It took us twelve hours to get there. Why, you may ask? Well its because the rain was coming down and flooded a part of the Memphis freeway. So, one at a time cars are passing through this one spot. Its o ur turn, and I prayed and prayed and prayed that our car would not flood. And it was so awesome, God literally gave us a "wave" and cleared the way while I drove through this thing. No flooding of the car, although the water came all the way up to the door and even got i nto the car! I know, God is good!

So anywho, we get there and the weather was not pretty for us on Sunday and Monday. So, what do you do on an overcast Sunday with Red Flags? Go boogie boarding of course! LOL The waves were awesome for it! I was loving it! Daniel was freaking out! Camille, I'm sure, was looking at mommy in the waves, thinking, "I wish I was there with her!" Don't worry...our Braveheart was up in the middle of all of it by the end of the week when the weather and water turned calmer and sunnier!

On Monday we went and visited the USS Alabama. It was such a cool experience! The rest of the week was spent on the beach, eating, and I took Camille to a Zoo. Oh that experience is hilarious! Got to share that! So the guys (we went with another family) decided that they would go to the Naval Museum, so us girls went to the zoo. We get there, pay and go inside, and I was laughing on the inside. It was more like a petting farm. They had guinea pigs and baby rabbits. It was hilarious! Even chickens, hens, and roosters running around. Lambs wondering aimlessly down the walking path. Yeah, it was like they took Arkansas and plopped it in the middle of Florida. No problems, though. The girls loved it and loved feeding the animals. Camille kept bossing the animals around, which was funny. Anyways, I will leave you with pictures, which is what you wanted to see in the first place!

LOVES!

JENN

I don't know...

My daughter, when she is very upset, will say... I don't know! I will ask her, "Camille, where is your smile?" She will say, "I don't know!" I will then say, "Do you want to find it?" Her response? "I don't know!"
I think that is what has been running through my mind these past couple of days. Mothers's Day is such a special day, and it was, truly it was. It was hard, though, knowing that amonth ago I miscarried. Knowing that I will probably be the only one to ever remember that day. Do I really want to remember that important, significant day? Its a yes/no type of answer.
I struggle with the emotions that go with all of this. Grief is so strange. Most days I feel wonderful. Happy and peaceful, even. Then there are those other days. The not so happy days. I have to constantly remind myself that God is in control of everything and that His timing is perfect. I remember the vison that He gave me of our beautiful son who is now in heaven with Him. The little face that looked so much like my husband. Yes, God gave me that vision, that dream, and I hold onto it. When I start to get down, I remember it and I am uplifted again. I know that all of this will pass. That the jumble of emotions will get itself worked out. Patience has never been my virtue! LOL
I must apologize for the bummed out post. I know, you were looking forward to beach pictures and a beach post. I will post that soon. I promise! The pics are saved on my computer at home! So the question is? Did I enjoy the beach...OR NOT??? That will be in the next post. :)

Loves!
jenn